Daily Update

 Hi Followers ,
I assume you all followed my last intervention! So I am thinking that this is a good place to work about all my worries, and my thoughts ! So currently I am writing something about my cold mind ! about which I do not understand what kind of mess I am making around me and what is costing my existence in human society! Though I am suppose to be the part of it !  My appearance is some how ridiculous even for me ! But I can't help it ! Nobody understand me nobody appreciate the effort I am making to survive! I am alone in my thought process ! And I am pretty sure nobody have the patients or knowledge to understand the depth of my focus ! Cause as per them I am insane and that's true for most extend I don't understand their thought process and can't cope up with them ! My sanity is in  question I am not immortal and don't want to be so ! But want to get some answer of my Miserable Existence!

Here I am ! Still trying to make something good out of my perthitic epic life and so far nada ! So again I am hopeful there is another precious night is waiting for me when I will sleep and there is no morning...
Hoping for the best !
Say best of luck to me folks 
Your Sincerely 
Babai Dam         

Identity Crisis

 Hi If you are a regular follower you know who I am and what kind of mind set up I have !

It is really annoying to losing identity ! I am really offended that I am still in a situation which I can't explain to anyone ! And my readers when you will receive this self explained dilemma probably in that period  I am in deep shit ! There is no turning back , there is only extreme pain and I am not ready to face it . I don't have the power to focus in any other's business I am now breakable! But I need to know what is exactly wrong with me ! When someone need any kind of relief they come to me ! Even my ex , She can share anything and everything with me and think that I am ok with every nook and canny she explain about her love making or other stuff ! Why my life is miserable, there is no chance of redemption except Death ! Someday I must acquire the courage to destroy my mortal life ! I have a theory though I heard that If somebody truly try to forget a thing he or she can …

I am trying my best to forget what the hell that I become , I need to remember the  old me !  And readers everything is changing day by day! Every day is a new day every day I explain to myself one more day one more fight and may be one more hope ! Every day I feel to explain to me yes everything is fine ! Nobody is going to make any fun of you ! They are your friend they are your comrades but I lose my day just like this ! I think I am looking for some closer , and someday I will get it ! but will it be the appropriate resolution after that long time ? Why I am still alive this is one big mystery!

I am hoping to solve that mystery soon 

till than waiting for the next best day 

Good day Friends well if you think I am 

bye for now 

Babai Dam .