What I am actually
It doesn't matter!
I am a lost soul, I am a solo blogger who doesn't know what is the purpose of his blog! But I feel some times it is easy to describe my feelings! My self helplessness attitude! Which I couldn't counter, Do You know anyone talks about specific movies side characters long lost sibling! Well, it's very rare! Well, everyone looking for the winners the heroes! Everybody wants to see the 1 out of 100! But sorry pals, I am not a hero, I like to speak on behalf of that 99 lost souls who lost the life battle like me. I m speaking on behalf of them because I lost so much in my 30+ years. And I know I am about to lose more precious objects in my way! Short notice I have an unannounced personality disorder which is medically not proven! But I feel it! I don't have any control over myself. I do terrible things which I feel regret for but I can't help it...
"I fed my heart a melancholy pain...
Which one gives me now the strength of being lonely!"
"Sentiments don't matter when it comes to the real equation about your life & happiness ...
Cause the person who really able to make your life better! Actually, she is available there for someone else!"
Anyway, I can't make my life better! Essentially I am quieter for a long time! But I figured out my misconceptions always gave some other persons hope to move on! See I am a jack of all trade but masters of none...
I will post when I get some time as U all know I am not a person of my words but I want all to follow the opposite action of mine!
"Anyway
I am thinking about something strange...
Is there any girl who is beautiful and having the same IQ & EQ like me, able to think just like me able to fantasize like me and understand each and every part of my conversation and believe in me ...
Is there really any girl like this?
And the next catechism, if she really belongs and loves me back, will I able to confront her or be frightened of her or I sense jealous!"
Today I am leaving this blog up to this! Who knows what is my fate! Cause someone told me someday U can't predict your fate! And you know what! It's so true!
I do not even know what is my next minute death sentence is!
Bye for now
Catch U someday
Babai Dam
